I've been learning that this blog cannot be fashioned like other blogs...God has continually whispered to be real...so real other young mothers can be encouraged, strengthed, and walk away knowing that yes, motherhood is HARD work if done properly, but ever so rewarding here and in eternity. P.S. If you are saved you do have HELP!
2007 By this time we had three grown children that had left home and I was pregnant with our thirteenth child. |
Being an "older woman" I'm told to "teach the younger women", so I'd like to share my struggling "prayer journey" for my thirteen children in hopes that you will be strengthened in our prayer life.
I turned 60 years old this week and God is still teaching me how to pray for my family! This morning I read a devotional entry in Streams in the Desert compiled by Mrs. Charles E. Cowman in 1925 on prayer. I'd like to share a snipet of it so I can share what the Lord pointed out in my life. Prayerfully it will shape your young life for your children and family.
"I NEED oil," said an ancient monk; so he planted an olive sapling. "Lord," he prayed, "it needs rain that its tender roots may drink and swell. Send gentle showers." And the Lord sent gentle showers. "Lord," prayed the monk, "my tree needs sun. Send sun, I pray Thee." And the sun shone, gilding the dripping clouds. "Now frost, my Lord, to brace its tissues," cried the monk. And behold the little tree stood sparkling with frost, but at evening it died.
Steve's lil' olive sapling. |
Then the monk sought the cell of a brother monk, and told his strange experience. "I, too, planted a little tree," he said, "and see! it thrives well. But I entrusted my tree to its God. He who made it knows better what it needs than a man like me. I laid no condition. I fixed not ways or means. "Lord send what it needs," I prayed, "storm or sunshine, wind, rain, or frost. Thou hast made it and Thou dost know."
Earlier this year I looked back through the looseleaf notebook that lists each child's prayer requests that I used for YEARS..I started a page for each child when they come home from the hospital after birth. There is a record of areas I needed wisdom to help each child to overcome...challenges we met in their character...health needs, hurdles blocking them in school, and I prayed for their future mates and their parents. In the past decade I've added those long prayed for spouces names and as the years have flown by, grandchildren's names litter the tops of the notebook pages.
Flipping through the pages I saw prayer requests that seemingly hadn't been answered from their early childhood days. I remember seeing these areas of weakness and crying out to God for wisdom to fine tune my training. Why were MY prayers seemingly unanswered in some of their lives? Immediately the enemy whispered thoughts of failure. My heart ached for my inability to train my children "in the way they should go". Somewhere in the mix I didn't factor in their free will. Each child takes training differently, and all I was ultimately accountable for was my faithfulness.
Then again this morning as I read this lil' devotional God showed me once again how to pray for my children. I just thought I knew what they needed...HE TRUELY DOES! He alone can change a heart...He alone knows how to orchestrate the lessons that will one day bring them to their knees at the cross. He has never failed them and orchestrates the lessons HE knows they need at the proper time. My timetable was often filled with pride...to have a well behaved child...a peaceful home...to prove to my parents our path in obedience to God wouldn't make social misfits. (Yes, that's an OLD lie of satan that was being whispered in the early 80's to discourage us!) But little by little He exposed my prideful heart and now I see His loving touch on each one. I can picture his knowing smile and hear His chuckle as I droned on and on about what each one needed! Ha ha! I'm thankful for His patience!
So, as you look at your prayer life, do you cry out for wisdom? Do you beg for patience? Then your path may resemble mine at times.
Are we allowing God to "water, send strong winds, and freezes" into our children's lives to make them the adult He needs them to be? We must guard against begging for what we think they need...It's a step of maturity to release your children into His all-knowing power and pray, "THY will, not MINE be done" in their lives.
After we've cried out in surrender we need to be listening for His voice to direct us. Releasing our will to His and trusting Him is a big step...a growing step...a step of faith. I can testify it's a step that leads to peace!
After a long winter, we took a day off for a one-day vacation exploring a town nearby. We had such fun as a family! |
I've had gals write and ask how the renovation is going. Some of ya'll say you have dreams of getting out of debt and renovating a place or building yourselves.We're nearing phase 1 completion!!
AFTER
As Steve finished one room, he'd often ask me what I'd like him to start next. We brainstormed each area to make it as efficient as possible. He has offered to start the kitchen a couple of times, but I assured him I could wait, knowing he'd be able to concentrate best on building the cabinets during the long days of winter. The transformation from using folding tables and a desk to my new kitchen is AMAZING! Maybe you can glean some ideas for your "dream kitchen" from us. (If you just want to see the finished project, scroll towards the bottom for the finished pictures.)
Before Pictures
Here you can see through the door Steve cut. We bought new appliances and cut out alllll the cabinets. |
The view from the "dining room". |
Our first upgrade was for the coffee and teapot. |
Last fall before he took a trip to Missouri he upgraded the counter, and I felt so rich! |
We used our farm's bakery rack to hold bowls and appliances and made do the best we could. The two dish pans under the sink were handy to catch all the leaks! :) |
I replaced the market table with the changing table. |
Progress Begins!
First we settled our plans! This was a commical step as I had a lot planned for this small space that in reality wouldn't fit! I had put a small desk in the middle of the kitchen last fall to see if we could fit in an island...nope! It was handy during canning season, but cramped the room. So, we have came up with an idea for later to give us a moveable island that will greatly help.
Steve's first step was to build upper cabinets over our stove. We wanted to use this area for coffee and tea, so mugs, coffee pot, tea pot, would be stored here.The coffee supplies are well above my reach.., all these cabinets are! Ha ha! But I don't make coffee. MY 6'5" husband does. My hot water carafe is on the right and the coffee pot is on the left open shelf. He built the cabinet so that he is able to fill the water on the top of the coffee maker without moving it.
We bought a new microwave to match the stove...It looks very modern and has a built in vent.
I want to praise my husband at this point as he was diligently making these cabinets in a frigid workshop and bringing them inside to install and finish them.
The top four left drawers are shallower than the rest, but house all my baking and cooking utensils. The lower drawers hold bread pans, casserole dishes, and odd shaped pans. The narrow cabinet on either side of the sink holds cutting boards (left) with all my recipe cards above it in the specially sized drawer. To the right of the sink the narrow cabinet holds the dish draining rack and microfiber pad. The narrow drawer above it is just the right size for small disposable containers that I put scrubbies in! How fun and HANDY! The vegetable scrub brush and bottle brushes also are stored there.
We simply thought of all the things that used to sit beside our sink or was cluttered under the sink and designed a special out of the way spot for them.
A word about countertops...maybe two...Next month we will have been married 40 years. In that time we've seen trends come and go. Trendy things are often more expensive. When it comes to trendy countertops they are EXPENSIVE. We couldn't see sinking a lot of our building budget into granite or other expensive choices. We heard they are fussy with hot pots, we had experience with rotting wood, and we knew that laminate countertops last a long time taking the beating. So for around $700 we got our special order countertops, saving a few thousand! Again, you don't have to take the stock options at the building supply store. Find a local cabinet shop and buy from them...guess what!? That's right where our Lowes would have ordered it for us!
I fell in love with the Pintrest kitchens online made with old hutches, Hoiser Cabinets, etc. Steve outright rejected the idea since he wanted to put his stamp on this home, BUT he did take my desired for a bit of old with the new. He fashioned our sink's cabinet to look like an "antique" wash stand and our upper glass cabinets to have the hutch "feel".
The raised panels that are in the sink "wash stand" give it an old world feel.
The little detailing helped the upper cabinets look like a hutch top.
Again, the finish work dried in front of the fire!
We have always had open shelving in our home. I store a lot of our dry goods in blue antique canning jars. This time instead of a box-style open shelving, Steve made corbals with a femine flare to them.
This is a quick sourdough crusted Breakfast Pizza! |
Sourdough supper hand pies |
Left: Sourdough Hamburger Buns Right: Sourdough Hand Pies Below: Hand Pie filling |
I keep a bag of sourdough English Muffins in my freezer for quick breakfasts. |
This is our basic sandwhich bread. It freezes well, so the whole 5 loaf batch goes in the freezer (if no one hyjacks a loaf first!). This still amazes me as we used to eat a batch a day!! |
Hardening off broccoli, cauliflower, onions, cabbage, lettuce, and MORE. |
My kitchen had been done about 3 days when we had the swap. What a blessing it was all neat and pretty! |